Christmas eve, I got drunk, smoked about a million, was horrendously hungover on christmas day. I forgot most of the night, pretty sure I was with a boy at one point behind the bus shelter. I have no idea what I was doing. I rang my girlfriend told her i was kissing this boy, she is mad at me and once again told em I am a shit girlfriend and she doesnt see the point in the relationship anymore. I dont know what I am doing. I dont know why I can't stop drinking. I don't know why I get such strong emotions that I dont know what to do with them. I drunk texted my boss, my friends everything. I am completely embarrassed and the thought of facing people makes me feel sick. My new years resolution, NO MORE ALCOHOL, and think I am going to spend the money I save on some therapy. I genuinely need help.
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