Money troubles

I went to the bank today to withdraw £200 for my trip to France. The lady behind the desk said I had only £8.47 available in my account. Holy crap. I mean I know December is a big month and everything, car insurance, tax, Christmas presents, end of season meals etc. etc. But I really thought I had about £500 left.  I get paid on the 30^th, its not like I will die, I am staying with my parents and working all the time so I don’t really have time to spend any money. But how the hell am I going to get some Euros in time for my trip? I can’t exactly show up and not pay for anything, I mean my girlfriend is generous but I don’t want to take the piss. Plus I need new stuff for work, I have definitely shrunk my favourite work shirt and my trousers are a bit small not to mention my shoes which have been punished all term. I have even booked a hair appointment to smarten myself up before the new term, I just don’t know what to do!

I do have savings, I have been turning to them a lot during the last three years, and they are definitely half gone, I keep saying I will pay myself back but I haven’t yet. I have already drawn up a budget for 2012 and working in the holidays will help. I am pretty sure by Feb I will be in the black. This feels wrong though. Surely now I am a girl in the working world I shouldn’t have to turn to my savings. Surely my days of worrying about money are over as long as I budget? I feel incredibly guilty and keep looking for a point where I spent stuff I shouldn’t have. But I haven’t bought clothes in ages, I did go out to end of term meals and buy a few rounds, but no more than anyone else. I suppose it is just Christmas. I should get over it right? At least I have savings; at least my parents will put me up for Christmas. I feel about 5. It could be worse. I could be Greek.