Meant to be a holiday, but with all the random stuff going on I decided that I needed something to get my teeth into.. how about a lifeguard course? I am not the best swimmer, having stopped lessons once it was clear I was not going to drown. But it would make it easier for me to get a job and stuff so why not?
It was great, everyone was sixteen, but I enjoyed the challenge and the people I met were nice, even though they are only 16. Bit strange working with sixteen year olds. I kept going home, absolutely exhausted, and put on my pjs, I was so cold and tired! Then I went to bed at some ridiculous early hour like 8pm. My Mum and Dad went mental. They said that it was depressing to put on pjs in the afternoon, and that I never do anything around the house. It was awful. I had to leave. My dad, who is normally quite reserved said that it ‘would be better’ if I left. I was upset. My parents have never really been the same since I came out.
However, when I got to my flat, I put music on really loud, made myself some dinner in my pjs and had a lovely beer. No judging. No complaints, no sharing. It was ace! I love being on my own, and I am only just learning to appreciate it!
Work starts again today, and I just spoke to my boss. We spoke about the night before half term, where I was COMPLETELY DRUNK. I think it is safe to say that I should not take my phone out with me when I am drinking. I rang my ex, and told her that I was not interested in her and she should go away, I also texted my boss... A LOT! When she was talking about it today, she said ‘I didn’t realise that I had a girlfriend...’ o shit. I don’t fancy her, but obviously when I have had a drink I become some sort of physco moron. God I hate the drunken me.
Present day, everything is fine,. I am actually really happy at the moment; I am speaking to the ex quite a lot, I am going out a lot, spending time with friends. I don’t want to fuck it up with physco drunken nights. Will let you know if I get put into a mad house.
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